I am the child

I am the child that looks healthy and fine.
I was born with ten fingers and ten toes.
But something is different, somewhere in my mind,
And what it is, nobody knows.

I am the child that struggles in school,
Thought they say that I'm perfectly smart.
They tell me I'm lazy-- can learn if I try--
But I don't seem to know where to start.

I am the child that won't wear the clothes
Which hurt me or bother my feet.
I dread sudden noised, can't handle most smells,
And tastes-- there are few foods I'll eat.

I am the child that can't catch the ball
And runs with an awkward gait.
I am the one chosen last on the team.
And I cringe as I stand there and wait.

I am the child with whom no one play
The one that gets bullied and teased.
I try to fit in and I want to be liked,
But nothing I do seems to please.

I am the child that tantrums and freaks
Over things that seem petty and trite.
You'll never know how I panic inside,
When I'm lost in my anger or fright.

I am the child that fidgets and squirms
Though I'm told to sit still and be good.
Do u think that I choose to be out of control?
Don't you know that I would if I could?

I am the child with the broken heart
Though I act like I don't really care.
Perhaps there's a reason God made me this way--
some message he sent me to share.

For I am the child that needs to be loved
And accpted and valued too.
I am the child that is misunderstood.
I am differernt-- but I look just like you.

- Kathy Winters -

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